You'll never know me, nobody ever knows anyone...ever

Weekend...

2004-03-16T17:07:19Z

Well this past weekend was great. Keri came over and stayed Friday and Saturday. We went to the mall Thursday night too. We took two skirts, I kept those and she took like six shirts. I got a lot of CD's...Marilyn Manson-Mechanical Animals, Dazed and Confused soundtrack, Yeah Yeah Yeahs-Fever To Tell, My Chemical Romance-I Brought You My Bullets You Brought Me Your Love, Taking Back Sunday-Tell All Your Friends...I got like eight movies...American Beauty, Practical Magic, White Oleander, Dazed and Confused, and Crazy In Alabama. I think that's all we got...I got a Led Zeppelin tee shirt too...we went downtown on Saturday but didn't get much...well I think that's all for now, so I'll update more later.

Updating...

2004-03-10T18:55:55Z

Well I haven't really been up to much of nothing...we went to the mall earlier today, I got CD's and that's about it...Taking Back Sunday, Nikka Costa, and I got a book but that's about it...I'm gonna update later on tonight...I'm trying to find another One Tree Hill icon with Lucas and Peyton. Help!!!

My Sound...

2004-03-06T07:46:25Z

Rain: You are the sound of rain. You have two important sides. There is your strong, powerful side and your calm, gentle side. Both are very important. Rain also reflects a bit of darkness in your personality. It isn't bad, just shows that along with the good, you also can see bad, which can come in handy.

What Sound Are You?
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Just Wishing...

2004-03-06T07:36:45Z

Well today was quite an interesting one. Nothing really too big happened or anything such as that but I got all thinking and shit. I wish so much that I so didn't fucking live here in this day and time...I would LOVE to have it like back in the 60's or 70's or even the 80's. Everything seems so much simpler. I mean I talked to Lindsey a little while earlier today and she totally agreed. Like she said, people are so uptight these days. It's the truth...I would love so much to just be able to say anything to anyone about anything and them not get they're fucking bowels in a god damn uproar. Back then everyone got along so fucking fine just because everyone wanted shit to be good, and for everyone to be happy. Now people try and find something wrong with everyone...god I fucking hate this place...here, the city, the state, the people, the fucking people who value and take shit for fucking granted...god damn you people. Have a nice one.

Updating...

2004-03-03T03:52:02Z

Well I just got done watching The Real World...nothing new really. I didn't do much lately, went to the library and that's about it. I'm gonna post some lyrics though and later tonight sometime I'll post another survey from LJ. Well that's about it...here's the lyrics...

Sheryl Crow-I Shall Believe:
Come to me now
And lay your hands over me
Even if it's a lie
Say it will be alright
And I shall believe
I'm broken in two
And I know you're on to me
That I only come home
When I'm so all alone
But I do believe
That not everything is gonna be the way
You think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly you won't give up on me
And I shall believe
And I shall believe
Open the door
And show me your face tonight
I know it's true
No one heals me like you
And you hold the key
Never again
would I turn away from you
I'm so heavy tonight
But your love is alright
And I do believe
That not everything is gonna be the way
You think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly
You won't give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
And I shall believe

Elton John-Your Song:
It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live
If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on
So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

The Cure-Pictures Of You:
I've been looking so long at these pictures of you
That I almost believe that they're real
I've been living so long with my pictures of you
That I almost believe that the pictures are
All I can feel
Remembering
You standing quiet in the rain
As I ran to your heart to be near
And we kissed as the sky fell in
Holding you close
How I always held close in your fear
Remembering
You running soft through the night
You were bigger and brighter and wider than snow
And screamed at the make-believe
Screamed at the sky
And you finally found all your courage
To let it all go
Remembering
You fallen into my arms
Crying for the death of your heart
You were stone white
So delicate
Lost in the cold
You were always so lost in the dark
Remembering
You how you used to be
Slow drowned
You were angels
So much more than everything
Hold for the last time then slip away quietly
Open my eyes
But I never see anything
If only I'd thought of the right words
I could have held on to your heart
If only I'd thought of the right words
I wouldn't be breaking apart
All my pictures of you
Looking so long at these pictures of you
But I never hold on to your heart
Looking so long for the words to be true
But always just breaking apart
My pictures of you
There was nothing in the world
That I ever wanted more
Than to feel you deep in my heart
There was nothing in the world
That I ever wanted more
Than to never feel the breaking apart
All my pictures of you

Things...

2004-02-28T06:45:36Z

Well today was quite the boring one...didn't do much. Mom took me to the video store and I got a few movies...and we went to Best Buy and I got 4 CD's. Led Zeppelin-Two, The Jayhawks-Rainy Day Music, The Rules Of Attraction Soundtrack, and Bright Eyes-Letting Off The Happiness (I completed my Bright Eyes collection.) Go me...well tomorrow night I think that Heather may be coming over. Well my head hurts like a mother fucker so I think I'll update more later...here's some lyrics though...

Nikka Costa-So Have I For You:
I am a woman with a mission and a past to outdo
I don't need a gun I've got a microphone and a melody or two
Just like the earth has spent a thousand years making up for what we do
So have I for you

Your seeds of misery have sprouted and they try to block my way
The worst gets the better of you and you try to disarm me with an embrace
Just like the heart that's spent a lifetime forgiving what is cruel
So have I for you

Well mama you can choose the rain but I choose the sun
That's all I need to free myself

I am a woman with a mission and a past to outdo
I don't need a gun I've got a microphone and a melody or two
Just like the earth has spent a thousand years making up for what we do
So have I for you

I have justified every wave in our ocean
I have covered every range of emotion
And just like the sea has spent eternity at the mercy of the moon
So have I for you

Well mama you can choose the rain but I choose the sun
That's all I need to free myself

This bird's gonna fly so high
Watch my sky come undone
Mama you can choose the rain
But I choose the sun

Harry Nillson-Without You:
No, I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows
Yes, it shows

No, I can't forget tomorrorow
When I think of all my sorrows
When I had you there but then I let you go
And now it's only fair that I should let you know
What you should know

I can't live if living is without you
I can't live, I can't give any more
Can't live if living is without you
I can't give, I can't give any more

No, I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows
Yes, it shows

Can't live if living is without you
I can't live, I can't give anymore
I can't live if living is without you
Can't live, I can't give anymore

I LOVE that one ^^^ it was the one in the suicide scence of The Rules Of Attraction.

Movie...

2004-02-27T08:04:54Z

Well I watched The Rules Of Attraction a few hours ago and it so got me thinking. I've seen it before but it just hit me this time. And htings have been weird enough to scare me here lately. But everything besides this is cool. The soundtrack to this movie is some amazing shit too, everyone shall check it out...

Things...

2004-02-25T03:28:16Z

Well right now I'm watching The Real World. I went to Heather's this weekend. I stayed Friday and Saturday night. I think Keri is coming over this weekend though. Maybe Heather. I got drunk and high as hell the other night with my mother and shit man...my mom head butted me and my head hurts like a mother fucker now and I have a huge ass zit. Rawr! But yeah I got some new pictures, I'll put up the link tomorrow or something...I gotta go for right now.

Updating...

2004-02-18T20:49:33Z

Well I'm bored right now, nothing really new to talk about...I have a survey and two song lyrics to post though, here they are...

BASIC INFO...
:x: name = cassie
:x: piercings = 2 on each ear...getting ready to go put in a third pair as I type
:x: tattoos = just ink stains
:x: height = 5 feet 7 inches
:x: shoe size = 8 1/2 or 9
:x: hair color = brown with black underneath and black highlights
:x: length = a little before my bra strap
:x: siblings = 2 stepbrothers

LAST...
:x: movie you rented = thirteen
:x: movie you bought = almost famous
:x: song you listened to = iggy pop-search and destroy
:x: song that was stuck in your head = nirvana-all apologies
:x: cd you bought = bush-sixteen stone and no doubt-the singles
:x: cd you listened to = dashboard confessional-places you have come to fear the most
:x: person you've called = heather
:x: person that's called you = keri
:x: tv show you've watched = the real world, one tree hill, gilmore girls
:x: person you were thinking of = lindzey

DO...
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = hell fucking yes god damn yes shit yes hell yeah fuck yeah man
:x: you think about suicide = not much anymore...
:x: you believe in online dating = damn...not quite
:x: others find you attractive = some
:x: you want more piercings = of corpse
:x: you do drugs = well i'm stoned to the bone right now
:x: you smoke = sometimes
:x: you like cleaning = yeah
:x: you like roller coasters = yep
:x: you write in cursive or print = cursive
:x: you carry a donor card = shit no, they can use they're own liver

FOR OR AGAINST...
:x: long distance relationships = for
:x: using someone = against
:x: killing people = for
:x: teenage smoking = for
:x: premarital sex = for
:x: driving drunk = against
:x: gay/lesbian relationship = for
:x: soap operas = against

FAVORITE...
:x: food = lasagna
:x: song = elton john-tiny dancer
:x: thing to do = listen to music and read
:x: thing to talk about = the past...hell knows i talked alot about it last night being fucked up as i was
:x: sports = none
:x: drink = pina colada
:x: clothes = fishnet and colors
:x: movies = almost famous
:x: band/singer = led zeppelin, social d, and bright eyes
:x: holiday = halloween

NUMBER...
:x: of times I have been in love? = once
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = none
:x: of hearts I have broken? = one...fuck
:x: of girls I have kissed? = 4
:x: of boys I have kissed? = 6
:x: of drugs taken illegally? = 3
:x: of people I would classify as true friends? = two
:x: of people I consider my enemies? = why hold grudges when it once made you happy?
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = haha none...
:x: of scars on my body? = fuckin a man...i'd say three and a shitload just can't count other reasons
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = notta

FAVORITE...
:x: disney movie = little mermaid
:x: scent = op juice
:x: word = sentiment
:x: nickname = i dunno...that crazy shit heather called me that once
:x: guy name = bob
:x: girl name = frankie
:x: eye color = brown
:x: hair color = bright or dark, never in between
:x: flower = daises
:x: actor = jake gyllanhaal, hayden christensen, matt lillard
:x: actress = busy phillips, holly hunter, jaimie king

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: pretty = yep
:x: funny = yep
:x: hot = on a good day
:x: friendly = to a certain extent
:x: amusing = yeah
:x: ugly = nope
:x: loveable = yea
:x: pessimistic = sometimes
:x: optimistic = sometimes
:x: caring = sometimes
:x: sweet = sometimes
:x: dorky = sometimes

:x: Spell your first name back wards = eissac
:x: Are you straight? = open minded
:x: 4 words that sum you up = crazy fucked up found

DESCRIBE YOUR...
:x: Wallet = pink and black checkered
:x: Hairbrush = pink
:x: Toothbrush = pink
:x: Jewelery worn daily = god damn...a watch a couple necklaces, a ring and some jellies
:x: Pillow cover = pink and black striped
:x: Blanket = white and black striped...and hello kitty
:x: Shoes = tall black lace up boots, black short chucks, pink high top chucks
:x: Handbag = pink hello kitty, pink furry, black and pink skulls, plain black dickies
:x: Favorite shirt = i dunno...my damn patched up black strap shirt i suppose
:x: CD in stereo right now = there's three...a mix cd, dashboard confessional, and bush
:x: What you are wearing now = black shorts and a black tee shirt...
:x: Hair = longish brown and black

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)...
:x: In my mouth = gum...perv
:x: In my head = songs and fucking lots of things
:x: Wishing = to leave here
:x: After this = gonna watch almost famous
:x: Talking to = heather and some dude
:x: Eating = ice cream and reddi whip
:x: Fetishes = fishnet, glitter, boots, bags, pigs, pinkish...
:x: If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who would it be? = god damn....for someone i hate so much murder is a easy revenge
:x: Person you wish you could see right now = i'm not even gonna say it...
:x: Is next to you = a trashcan and cd's
:x: Something you're looking forward to in this up coming month = hmm...my boots coming in the mail
:x: Something that you are deathly afraid of? = i don't tell people that
:x: Do you like candles = of corpse
:x: Do you like hot wax = yep
:x: Do you like incense = yea
:x: Do you like the taste of blood = yea
:x: Do you believe in love = yes
:x: Do you believe in soul mates = yep
:x: Do you believe in love at first sight = yes
:x: Do you believe in forgiveness = yeah on certain extents
:x: Do you believe in God = nope
:x: What do you want done with your body when you die = cremated
:x: Who is your worst enemy? = fuck em'
:x: If you could have any animal for a pet = pink pig
:x: What is the longest you've ever stayed up = 3 days
:x: Ever been to Belgium? = hell no
:x: Can you eat with chopsticks = yeah..so talented
:x: What countries wouldn't you mind relocating to? = i dunno....the one where france is
:x: What's something that you wish people would understand? = there's only one person i wish understood me better
:x: What's something you wish you could understand better? = time
:x: Anyone you miss? = one person
:x: Something you want to make happen for tomorrow? = get the urge to haul ass away from here

The Jayhawks-I'm Gonna Make You Love Me:
The world never ends
It’s only the beginning
And we can't pretend
To discover it’s meaning

We talked for hours at a time
Then I came to my senses
You’re more than a friend
You’re my perfect lover

I'll never be all you want me to
But that's all right

I'm gonna make you love me
I'm gonna dry your tears
And we're gonna stay together
For a million years

It’s the least I can do
Just to make you my baby
No words could describe
Oh, pinch me I'm dreaming

Your hair's long and black
As it lays 'cross my pillow
When I stare in your eyes
I get lost in your glory

I'll never be all you want me to
But that's all right

I'm gonna make you love me
I'm gonna dry your tears
And we're gonna stay together
For a million years

When you were a little girl
Your great big world came tumbling down
So sad

Yeah, the river it bends
But it flows to the ocean
And baby here I am
I'm your sea of devotion

I'll never be all you want me to
But that's all right

I'm gonna make you love me
I'm gonna dry your tears
And we're gonna stay together
For a million years....

Zwan-Honestly:
I believe
I believe
I believe
I believe the love you talk about with me
is it true, do I care
honestly, you can try to wipe the memories aside
but it's you that you erase

'cause there's no place that I could be without you
it's too far to discard the life I once knew
honestly, all the weather storms are bringing
are just a picture of my dreams
'cause when I think of you as mine
and allow myself with time
to lead into the life we want
I feel loved, honestly
I feel loved, this honestly

I believe you mean the best that life can bring
I believe in it all
honestly, you can try
your heart is just as long as mine
is it ours to let go

'cause there's no place that I could be without you
it's too dark to discard the life I once knew
honestly, a single wrong is not enough
to cover up the pain in us
'cause when I think of you as mine
and allow myself with time
to lead into the life we want
I feel loved, honestly
I'll make a joke so you must laugh
I'll break your heart so you must ask
is this the way to get us back
I don't know, honestly
I don't know, this honestly

there's no place that I could be without you
honestly

there's no place that I could be without you
there's no place that I could gleam without you
there's no place that I could dream without you
there's no place that I could be without you
honestly

Newness...

2004-02-18T05:49:05Z

Peyton, Peyton, Peyton!!! I have a really hard time making the titles for this shit...as you can see. But that's irrelevant. Today, was just a typical day I suppose. Didn't do much at all...watched my shows and that's about it. Mom ordered me two pairs of boots today from electronicboutique. I'm really irritated at the "Baaah Frank" shit that I keep getting in my mail...god damn that goat. Well that's all for now, I'll update some more important things later....print artist isn't cooperating so the site might be a couple more weeks late. Sorry...and hereis some lyrics!

ELO-Blinded By The Light:
Madman drummers bummers and Indians in the summer with a teenage diplomat
In the dumps with the mumps as the adolescent pumps his way into his hat
With a boulder on my shoulder, feelin' kinda older, I tripped the merry-go-round
With this very unpleasing sneezing and wheezing, the calliope crashed to the ground
Some all-hot half-shot was headin' for the hot spot, snappin' his fingers, clappin' his hands
And some fleshpot mascot was tied into a lover's knot with a whatnot in her hand
And now young Scott with a slingshot finally found a tender spot and throws his lover in the sand
And some bloodshot forget-me-not whispers, "Daddy's within earshot, save the buckshot, turn up the band"

And she was blinded by the light
Cut loose like a deuce, another runner in the night
Blinded by the light
She got down but she never got tight, but she'll make it alright

Some brimstone baritone anti-cyclone rolling stone preacher from the East
He says, "Dethrone the dictaphone, hit it in its funny bone, that's where they expect it least"
And some new-mown chaperone was standin' in the corner all alone, watchin' the young girls dance
And some fresh-sown moonstone was messin' with his frozen zone to remind him of the feeling of romance

Yeah, he was blinded by the light
Cut loose like a deuce, another runner in the night
Blinded by the light
He got down but he never got tight, but he's gonna make it tonight

Some silicone sister with her manager's mister told me I got what it takes
She said, "I'll turn you on, sonny, to something strong if you play that song with the funky break"
And Go-Cart Mozart was checkin' out the weather chart to see if it was safe to go outside
And little Early-Pearly came by in her curly-wurly and asked me if I needed a ride
Oh, some hazard from Harvard was skunked on beer, playin' backyard bombardier
Yes, and Scotland Yard was trying hard, they sent some dude with a calling card, he said, "Do what you like, but don't do it here"
Well, I jumped up, turned around, spit in the air, fell on the ground and asked him which was the way back home
He said, "Take a right at the light, keep goin' straight until night, and then, boy, you're on your own"
And now in Zanzibar, a shootin' star was ridin' in a side car, hummin' a lunar tune
Yes, and the avatar said, "Blow the bar but first remove the cookie jar, we're gonna teach those boys to laugh too soon"
And some kidnapped handicap was complainin' that he caught the clap from some mousetrap he bought last night
Well, I unsnapped his skull cap and between his ears I saw a gap but figured he'd be all right

He was just blinded by the light
Cut loose like a deuce, another runner in the night
Blinded by the light
Mama always told me not to look into the sights of the sun
Oh, but Mama, that's where the fun is
I was blinded
I was blinded
I was blinded

The Sundays-Wild Horses:
Childhood living is easy to do
The things you wanted I bought them for you
Graceless lady, you know who I am,
You know I can't let you slide through my hands

Wild Horses,
Couldn't drag me away,
Wild, wild horses,
Couldn't drag me away...

I watched you suffer a dull, aching pain
Now you decided to show me the same
No sweeping exits or offstage lines,
Can make me feel bitter or treat you unkind

Wild Horses,
Couldn't drag me away,Wild, wild horses,
Couldn't drag me away...

I know I dreamed you a sin and a lie,
I have my freedom but I don't have much time
Faith has been broken tears must be cried,
Let's do some living after we die

Wild Horses,
Couldn't drag me away,
Wild, wild horses,
We'll ride them someday

Wild Horses,
Couldn't drag me away,
Wild, wild horses,
We'll ride them someday

Updating, FINALLY...

2004-02-17T06:05:13Z

Well I haven't updated in a while. I've been busy. Between trying to get a hold of Charlie Brown the damn hairdresser...lol, that is really that kid's name. Yeah so my hair started turning green, but it's fixed now. I got attacked my pigeons downtown Friday...that was freaky. I'm getting my pictures developed tomorrow, so I should have them up here soon. Super smart me figured it out. Wow...so anyways. Nothing new really, well alot is new actually, just not anything worth telling people that I don't care about. "They're on pot!"...so I was watching Almost Famous the other night and damn it kinda hit me...that's kinda what I think I wanna do. Write, like that. Musically. I've been discovering some talent of mine here lately and find myself very well taught. This shitty homeschool is crap man, easy fucking shit. I don't even do anything, when my god damn grandmother turns around, not the one I live with, the normal one...I just fucking download shit and burn CD's...I'll pass easy as fuck and all I do on the stupid message board shit online for the other students, I just fucking argue and shit...they get so mad. Well Friday night I hung out with my cousin, haven't seen that dude for like a year. Him and his damn girlfriend broke up. She's bipolar as hell and fucking insane man. Well I stayed at his apartment with him and my aunt. We rented movies, we got Almost Famous, Thirteen, Nowhere, American Beauty, Strangeland, The Crow:City Of Angels, Life As A House, The Smokers, O, Practical Magic, Pretty Woman, Sid And Nancy, White Oleander, and The Rules Of Attraction...it took forever to watch them but we were up all night, I didn't get any sleep all weekend and I stayed Saturday night too of corpse. But that's all I have to share right now, I'll post pictures later.

Updating...

2004-01-26T06:53:09Z

Well I really haven't been updating much lately. I'm switching to DeadJournal when my subscription here ends. I'll put the link up on my site though. Well I talked to Lindsey today for a while. I asked her to go see a movie with Heather and I this weekend so hopefully she will. I miss her and want to be there for her. Well I think that my schedule is fixed for good this time but my computer clock is still under California time so I have no idea what time it's gonna show up that I wrote this as. But I'll update more often, sorry...

Time And Such...

2004-01-24T01:09:56Z

Well the time on this entry is wrong because I have my clock on my computer set as California time because I'm a dork. Well Heather and I were supposed to go see The Butterfly Effect tonight but mom said if we wait until next weekend we could go out to eat too. So we just rented movies. We got Practical Magic, Fear, and American Beauty. We went to the mall for a little while earlier today. I got a Hello Kitty trash can, bag, and blanket. :) Wowzers. Well umm I got something in my damn eye and it's driving me insane trying to type. So I think I'll update later. Don't I always say it? Well I will.

Ummm...

2004-01-21T03:32:00Z

Well I just got a little while ago, I didn't get to sleep until about six or seven this morning. I watched Almost Famous last night like a million times and Hocus Pocus, and Serendipity. :) I found a very interesting picture of some kitty. I still can't figure out how to post pictures. Rawr! Put when I do I have some of my hair!!! I love it! We got it cut about seven inches and got black highlights. I'm trying to download a file converter to switch my .art files to .jpg or .gif but it's taking a while. Rawr! I have to switch all my fanlisting in .gif and .jpg so that I don'ty direct link. Arrggg...pain in my ass. But anyways I think I'm gonna update more later so I'll be back then.

Schedule And Things...

2004-01-20T07:42:57Z

Well I'm sitting here watching Almost Famous!!!My favorite part is getting ready to come on!!!! Ahhhhh!!! *double swoon* Holy shit man...this movie is GREAT!!! Well yeah anyways I'm just sitting here looking up fan icons to make fanlisting areas on my site...it's almost done. Ahhh!!! My part!!! Your gonna have to excuse me while I leave to go watch it. "looking on...she sings her song, the words she knows, the tune she hums" Ahhh god damn!!! I get so excited and fucking obsessive with shit. Like this movie! I think I'll rewind this part. Yepers I rewinded it! I wanna be a mother fucking BAND AID!!! Yep but anyways I think I'll go so I can watch this over and over again and you should be too asshole!

Almost Fucking Famous!!!

2004-01-18T12:47:11Z

You are Sapphire

What Almost Famous character are you?
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O.o...

2004-01-18T12:27:26Z

Yeah so I'm beginning to think that I have a slight case of insomnia. I haven't slept in two whole days. And I'm not even sleepy..."It's all happening!" sorry, that one slipped. Ahhh I've found myself a bit obsessive over the Almost Famous shit lately. God damnit though...what a wonderful masterpiece. *swoons* It's a bit motherfucking cold in here as well. yep so anyways last night I didn't do anything much at all, just watched a few movies...I talked to Heather until five this morning in a chat...I won't even bother to say the damn to the crazy shit. But that was enjoyable. Yep but I'm craving some mother fucking cotton candy and god damn it's cold in here. But I'm leaving now...so yeah bye.

Crazy Website...

2004-01-17T14:05:19Z

Lol I have an amazingly crazy website for your dumbasses to visit...lol. Well yeah that's about all I have to say. Here's the link...

http://www.geocities.com/skaagent7/welcome.html

The Emotion I Represent...

2004-01-17T11:40:20Z

You represent angst. You have an extremely cynical outlook on just about everything and believe in destiny. It's okay to sulk and be depressed, but life is short, and you only get one. It's only what you make it, and only you can make it improve.

What emotion do you represent?
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California...

2004-01-17T00:15:15Z

My fucking stepdad got a god damned job in California for three god damned weeks...which means that me and my mother will be going with him!!!!!! I'm just about to shit all in my pants, I am just fucking happier than shit. They didn't say when it was though but god damn I'm sure as hell going. This has got to be the most amazing mother fucker thing that has ever happened. We took Rump to super pets tonight and let him pick out some bones and toothbrushes, and he got his nails trimmed and grooms and he has pink ribbons. We went to the Biltmore Mall for a little while also and mom bought me Almost Famous and the soundtrack and the old Garbage CD...well god damn that's about all for now, I was supposed to go somewhere with Heather but I've not been able to get in touch with her so I'm gonna go up to Ben's at around 9 when his mom goes off to work...I'll update more later.

Hehehe...

2004-01-16T12:28:21Z

Which Rock Chick Are You?

Haha...my personality disorder...

2004-01-15T02:56:08Z

Schizoid

Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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Stuffs...

2004-01-15T02:48:18Z

O.o so last night was greatness of all the greatness, I went to Ben's and we hung out and things...That's all I'll say about that. I'm waiting on my mother to get her ass home from Florida...she called at four and said she'd be home in an hour and she is not home yet, I'm beginning to worry. Yep so I had to move this god forsaken computer out of the closet because my body was sore as fuck from sitting on the floor and having to look up at the computer. But I did reactivate my website after I fixed everything and all the pages...everyone HAS to go to the cherryfuck site. Ahh it's just wonderful. I found some more albums of my moms tonight. There was only about twenty more though and half of them were The Smiths. And I'm loving it. I have a fucking headache from hell. Yep but I'm thinking I'll update later on tonight if I'm not busy.

My Type Of Soul...

2004-01-14T03:13:42Z

You are the rebellious soul. You hate authority, you don't give a damn what people think and you don't take anything into deep consideration of what could happen. People either love you or hate you, and you like it that way.

What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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Things And Such...

2004-01-14T02:18:07Z

Alright so i have updated in a couple days...me has been vewy vewy busy. Mom's in Florida right now looking for somewhere for us to move. She's been down there since Saturday. Yep so I've convinced my mother that it fucking sucks here and I cannot stay here and end up like everyone else that has every lived here, I'm getting the fuck out and that is that. I will move to where ever the fuck I want without school and do whatever the fuck I want, because that is me, fucking determined and god damn anyone who doubts me cause I'm gonna fucking prove them wrong. I've had a wonderful last couple of days though...I went through alot of old shit and every fucking thing I threw away, every god damned yearbook except the one from the 8th grade, I was thinking about just ripping out all the shit Heather wrote me and saving that but fuck it, I don't need a writing from her to know she'll be true. I decided I wanted a hole in my wall the other night so I put my god damned boots on and kicked...it's a pretty hole though. Mom won't like it that much...uh oh. I moved my room around also. I went down into the basement and found a fucking shitload of moms old redords...ha, I've been listening to The Bangels and Elton John. Lol. I'm gonna put up some lyrics at the bottom. I stepped on a piece of glass earlier. Ouchie...it bled like a mother fucker but it wasen't that painful. It was from where fucking David left a cup in my room and Keri and i were putting up my poster of The Crow and I knocked the son of a bitch over. Yeah so how I've rerarranged my room i have a shitload of pillows in my closet and the computer is in there on this shelf, I have to sit on the floor with all the pillows and such now. It's very very comfortable although my ass and legs go numb. I pulled my dresser up the stairs all by myself yesterday to put my clothing in. My back fucking hurts now. I have to go to the chiro person anyways cause my back has been hurting for a while now. Il it my pink candles last night, the mother fuckers would not lit for shit. But eventually they decided to coperate. I sat here and listened to Tiny Dancer and watched them burn...it was rather sentimental. Heather called and I talked to her for a little while, then her sister had to use the phone. Errrrgg. But that's about it for now, I'll try and update tomorrow. Here's some lyrics...

Elton John-Tiny Dancer:
Blue jean baby, LA lady, seamstress for the band
Pretty eyed, pirate smile, you'll marry a music man
Ballerinna, you must have seen her
Dancing in the sand
Now she's with me, always with me
Tiny dancer in my hand
Jesus freaks, out in the streets
Handing tickets out for God
Turning back, she just laughs
The boulevard is not that bad
Piano man, he makes his stand in the auditorium
Looking on, she sings the songs
The words she knows, the tune she hums
Oh how it feels so real, lying here with no near
Only you and you can't hear me, when I say softly, slowly
Hold me closer tiny dancer
Count the headlights on the highway
Lay me down in the sheets of linen
You had a busy day today
Hold me closer tiny dancer
Count the headlights on the highway
Lay me down in the sheets of linen
You had a busy day today
Blue jean baby, LA lady, seamstress for the band
Pretty eyed, pirate smile, you'll marry a music man
Ballerinna, you must have seen her
Dancing in the sand
Now she's in me, always with me
Tiny dancer in my hand
But oh how it feels so real
Lying here, no one near, only you
And you can't hear me when I softly, slowly
Hold me closer tiny dancer
Count the headlights on the highway
Lay me down in the sheets of linen
You had a busy day today
Hold me closer tiny dancer
Count the headlights on the highway
Lay me down in the sheets of linen
You had a busy day today

*You'll never know me, nobody ever knows anyone...ever*

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Newness...

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Time And Such...

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Almost Fucking Famous!!!

O.o...

Crazy Website...

The Emotion I Represent...

California...

Hehehe...

Haha...my personality disorder...

Stuffs...

My Type Of Soul...

Things And Such...

You'll never know me, nobody ever knows anyone...ever